I totally understand what you're going through and I understand how unbelievably devastating an event like this can be. December 2015, I lost my little brother, so I can somewhat understand your pain. You need to understand that you have so many people here for you. Right now, you have to be strong and stay strong for you mum, as I'm sure thats what she wouldve wanted. You have to be there for your family aswell, as they are going through exactly what you are going through aswell. Help support eachother through the grieving process. If you ever need anyone to talk to, talk to someone in your family, or someone you trust, or even one of us! We will always be here for you! Stay strong!