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Mod, Female, 15, from The Netherlands
Staff Member Moderator
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- Sep 29, 2001 (Age: 15)
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- The Netherlands
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- [Mod] Phoeniixia
Heya, welcome to my info-page.
I'm currently a moderator on the IJAH server, since the 13th of September. Before that, I got helper on the 15th of July.
More about me:
I'm currently depressed. The only reason why I'm still here is because of my antidepressants who keep me smiling and going.
I am currently in a relationship with the most amazing person in the world (you know who you are) (;
I'm a digital artist who is currently open for requests.
My favorite colors are: pastel colors, dark red and dark blue.
The loneliest people are the kindest, the saddest people smile the brightest, and the most damaged people are the wisest. All because they don't wish to see others suffer like they do.
I was always told, life is like a wheel. It will have its ups and have its downs. It is life. It is a journey. Whatever you are feeling right now. You shall have your up soon. When it comes, cherish it. It will make life better when you have your downs. My Mom always tells me: ''Your existence is of pure importance. You are very important.A part of people's lives that cannot be replaced.'' You truly matter. I should say this to myself, after long periods of depression. Sadly, I will never believe it. I'll never be confident enough to think better of myself. It's sometimes one of the most painful things to live with. But please, keep going, have hope and believe in yourself, because I know, you can accomplish anything, as long as you have hope.
'I’m really clumsy, and I hate it. I can’t walk 10 minutes without bumping into someone, something, or tripping over myself, but because people think it’s cute I laugh it off like it doesn’t bother me.'
'I can give advice and help other people, mediate arguments, balance people’s emotions and everything, but when it comes to me I have no clue what to do. If I’m upset, I don’t say anything because I value my friendship with someone over my own emotions.'
'I can almost read peoples minds when it comes to their feelings, I can tell when they are down and I know how to talk them back up. If I see someone crying, I instantly now how to act or what to say to make them feel better. Down side? I feel awkward the whole time. I don’t like dealing with heavy emotions, especially my own. I rarely cry, and if I do I have to be alone.'
'I have always felt somewhat at war with my ego. I’m constantly worried about being pretentious or so modest that I seem fake. I don’t want to indulge in my confidence too much, because I’m afraid I might put people off or hurt someone by being so assertive.'
'Sometimes I like to believe that my mind and thoughts are bigger than the universe itself. Im too ambitious so when I talk about my dreams people will just look at me with either a crazy look or in awe. My imagination is far beyond anything, sometimes I like to believe I'm not even mortal. I dream high and love endlessly. If anything Im most likely to live like in really indie hipster movies. I want someone to grab my hand and discover the world with me.'
❤ 12/09/16 ❤
I love you.
Noah is my personal bully.
Im his personal bully.
Don't bully him!!!