Addiction, is easily, the biggest cause of problems in my life right now. Addiction has created a problem that I am still trying to get myself out of a wormhole I have dug from addiction. I wanted to share my story and get it out there. I hope to help or inspire people struggling with addiction to stop, or start working on it. Early 2018, my life was in pretty good shape. I had a good social life in and out of real life, my grades were good and getting better every trimester and I had felt better, but I was so bored. So bored that I was basically just staring at walls for 45 minutes every time I try to go to sleep. I had then connected with an old friend and she told me about Fortnite (just keep reading please), and I had absolutely despised it. I wouldn't play it whatsoever. I was so against it that I even told her to fuck off, but since she's stubborn, she didn't. She had promised that if I didn't like it, we could go back to Minecraft and I didn't have to play it again, uninstall it, but I shouldn't miss the experience. I agreed since I am not one to lose experience if I haven't tried it. just want to note here, it looks like I am blaming her but I am not! don't take this the wrong way please First time I tried it, it was a hook. I started to play more and more, and the addiction started. I was on my XBOX every second I could, wouldn't go to social events, wouldn't talk to my real friends, just play the fucking game. Overtime, my online friendships deteriorated. Whilst a tough time, I didn't care because I wasn't bored. I was playing a new game, a game I had never tried, something finally new. I played every day that summer. I probably missed so many experiences, missed so many good memories all because I wanted to play a game. When ninth grade started, I had forgotten a lot of material from the year prior, which immediately sends red flags as I barely passed a class the year before. My habits didn't change, my heart didn't change, but my friendships did. I had gotten myself into a toxic relationship, my friends started treating me differently (not incredibly different, they still talked to me and stuff, but they always had an underlying problem with me). I acted like it was no biggie that my exams were fucked, until I got my 1st trimester report card. I had failed 7 classes. 7. My mom was livid, reasonably. Again, I let it go, told her I'll try harder for the 2nd trimester. But my habits didn't change because I was addicted, and needed help. You can play video games every day, but the moment it starts affecting your grades, that's a problem, and I knew that. I've recently started changing my habits. I've started to keep track the best I can of my classes, make sure I have everything I have ready and not let video games take me over. right anyways bye now ill be back in like 2 weeks lol
