Why I have no reveals. Discord/Minecraft

Discussion in 'General Discussion / Real life stuff' started by Golembyte, Dec 18, 2017.

  1. Golembyte

    Golembyte it’s rare you see me online Donator

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    Here’s the story I have never given anyone a face reveal, voice reveal or even revealed my real name...

    I’m super shy... I don’t talk to anyone at school.. at all really. In Kindergarten or PreK, we all mentally chose wether we were going to talk to everyone or not talking to anyone at all. I didn’t choose, so I never really talked to everyone. As the years went on I started not believing in my self and started getting thoughts that no one cared, that I was a failure to the entire world... I tried to keep it a secret from the few friends I had so they wouldn’t ask what was happening. I didn’t tell my parents how I felt either. As I went into middle school, my thoughts worsened, I was very high in neuroticism and I felt like I was nothing to this world. I felt like the world didn’t need me at all, like I was pointless. I tried to avoid any contact with hoomans. I just did the work and nothing else. After school, just sat on the bus and watched Netflix. I had the feeling that everyone hated me and all my friends were just lying to me and they wanted to rip my head off. I started using excersize as a way to get the stress off of me. When I would try for stuff I had the feeling that everyone was laughing at me and if I got in that I would fail them then I could quit in disbelief. I started to hurt myself as a price for feeling like I wasn’t good enough. Like a weight that keeps getting bigger. I kept trying to stand back up but I just kept falling. I tried to keep going, I still thought I wasn’t good enough for my family even...

    Now you know, don’t ask me anymore for voice reveals or face reveals. I just think that if you saw/heard who I really was you would hate me even more...

    This isn’t a suicide or quit message, I wa t to get out what I go through every day, why I don’t talk to anyone on a VC or do a face reveal... even for a million dollars on Survival.


    You didn’t think this was the end of the story... did you?
     
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  2. PopeUrbanII

    PopeUrbanII deus vult Donator

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    I think you're being way too hard on yourself. I think it you were to try to losen up a bit and join a discord call, you would have lots of fun.

    If your friends really didn't like you, I don't see why they would be faking it. Going into middleschool can definitely be tough but branching out and talking to new people would really help you. Most kids have the same thoughts going into middle school as you do.
     
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  3. Ryva

    Ryva Resigned Donator

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    I remember when I was like scared to join a discord call so I got a voice changer (yes ik lol) and it ended up not even working so I just gave up and was like screw it and I joined IJAH voice channel and had an absolute blast. Never be to afraid too try something new, like Ben said the only thing holding you back is you.
     
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  4. Hurricane2001

    Hurricane2001 4 year server Veteran Donator

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    Ur way to hard on urself golem its better to hang with friends..yes u said u think they hate u and want to rip ur head off....but there are some ppl out there who are just amazing in this world who treat everyone like family and help others on hard times

    It would be good if u tried hanging out with ppl cause not everyone hates u
     
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    ItsJerry DEAD SERVER!!! LMAO!!! Staff Member Owner

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  6. Katerina

    Katerina Former Mοd Donator

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    The fact that you haven't showed your actual self on the internet is actually good lol
    About the IRL part...you should check that out
     
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  7. RulerofMobs

    RulerofMobs Fuck. Bye, survival. Donator

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    How about for million and one dollars? Anyways man, I randomly found Pupcakes when I was randomly flying around the world, and it looks nice. I can tell you've been working hard on it. If you need a medieval house built, you know who to call up (: (not me, twage) if you need anything, I got you. Do you remember when we first met? I do. It was a long, long time ago in a galaxy far, far away, called CocaCola. I was an officer in Wormys fac and then you joined. I will say, due to the fact i didn't know you I didn't trust you at first, but eventually you worked your way up to officer, and we were doing so good. This IS the way we met right? Kind of doubting myself now. maybe I'm the one that needs help... anyways, hope your life goes good!
     
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    TwageTomato Former Mod Donator

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    I'm flattered.
     
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  9. tence3000

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    I think everyone has said what I have wanted to say apart from one thing.

    I just wanted to say that although it is made a big deal for people to do face reveals and to join calls without voice changers, this is the Internet where:
    1. You're here to have fun, not to feel pressured
    2. Have the right to personal security as not to reveal what you look like or any other information about you


    You shouldn't have to feel pressured to do any of this online. I can't judge for you in real life as that's a whole different 'kettle of fish' but when you're here you should be focusing on having a good time, not on becoming stressed and worried.
     
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